The Ride

I had high hopes for this morning's run, a little on the chilly side but still a warmer morning than we've had for a week and still quite dry. Although I've been on my bike daily, responsibilities have kept my rides short. But this morning I was getting a pre-dawn start, and really looked forward to a long riding day ahead.

I put my helmet and skull cap on to break the lingering morning chill, grab my summer gloves and riding jacket but leave behind the thick riding jeans. I expected a hot weather day once the sun comes up.

That was a mistake, it seems. No sooner did I get 25 miles from home before the sky shifted into a light mist. I stopped briefly on an overpass to watch the morning traffic swell. Then I notice my face mask dotting up quickly and feel wetness through the tops of my Levis. Hmm. I move on.

It was a full-on downpour by the time I reached a local coffeeshop. The Bandit's torquey engine was breaking traction and the bike fish-tailing every time I shifted out of first with any hurry. Everything was slick. The streets had not seen moisture in a couple days and were a lot more oily than usual. I forced myself to slow down.

Although it was still a half hour before they opened up, the very kind young woman behind the local coffeeshop counter, who knows my familiar face, let me stay. She even delivered me an espresso as soon as the machine warmed up. "Thanks," I say to her, now very cold from the watery wind-blast. Soaked to the bone and add, a bit sheepishly, "it's a little moist out there."

She smiles a pleasant enough smile, but "Who in their right mind would ride in this weather?!" is the thought her smile says back.

She's right, of course.

Sometimes, though, the best place to work out everything from irksome thoughts to big life decisions is (at least for me) in motion. In fact, if I were to pick a gravestone slogan for my own immemorial, it would be just that, in all capital letters:

"IN MOVEMENT IS TRUTH"

The "ride" is that place where each bit, each second of travel, and each acceleration, and every shift, and every lean and angle... where all of that is both expression and reflection. It expresses my mood and effortlessly explains it back to me. It becomes a moving meditation and a "life mirror" of sorts, like a wave stirred up on the silvery smooth surface of an otherwise still pond. It blends man and machine and situation and thought into one fluid train of movement and expression.

The more I ride, the more I understand other forms of how I've been seeking this reflective state over the years. Climbing brings me to that same meditative place. Running, skydiving, flying, and other activities I've been involved in do also. The "ride" that I'm talking about doesn't mean just on a bike.

So far as I can tell in looking back, my life has been mostly involved in the never-ending pursuit of this truthful space that defies a better explanation or even a reason why. For me, and for a few others I've met along the way, it's about living life expansively forward, and finding meaning along the way.